And if his happiness depends on it, surely that of the rest must,
for what happiness does a woman desire but that of those connected with
her? Husband has been for three years a devoted associationist; his
whole heart and mind have been with them and he has ardently desired
the associative life.
Not so myself. I was willing, it is true, to go anywhere he desired and
would be happy where he was happy, but I dreaded to leave such a
beautiful home, for the place we would leave is no ordinary one. The
prospect from it is considered as almost without a parallel. We have
plenty of fruit, flowers, fine grove and shade trees, in fact
everything to make rural life agreeable and we know how to appreciate a
beautiful location and prospect. Then I have had a fear of being a
pioneer, lest there should be too heavy work or duties imposed or
required of me. Such ideas combined, prevented me from seeing unitary
life as one ought who knows that it is in the form of a heavenly
society, and that as we desire perfection here on earth we must imitate
the heavenly model.
Since visiting you my fears have given place to an ardent desire to
become one of your Community, not to come as an alien and a stranger
but as a sister in full communion, with a heart full of love and
affection and with a strong desire to act my part fully and to do all
required of me.
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